Spicy Tales of My Life

Inspired by my own tale (Or rather sacred), I prepared to give up smoking finally. It’s just my 11th day but it really seems like eleven years since I gave up. It’s a torture I am going through. My brain is now divided into two parts. I know it’s already divided into two but each part is acting in conflict with the other part. The right part of my brain says, “Zabi!! Don’t dare smoke” and the wrong part of my brain says “Do hell with everything. Go for it. Pleasure should all be yours.” 

A long time back I read this alchemist quote “when you really want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you achieve it.” But in case of a cigarette it is the other way around and it forces me to correct Paulo with, “when you really, really don’t want something, the entire universe conspires in forcing you achieve it.” Everything around me, in someway, puts a thought of smoking a cigarette in my mind. Earlier the only thing that caught my attention when walking on the road was a gal with a nice ass. Now it’s a piece of cigarette, beedi or any thing that is made of, or related to tobacco. No matter where a smoker is standing, he becomes the only thing that my eyes can see, and when I see him smoke, I get this irresistible feeling to do the same. Disgusted by my weakness I resolved not to look anywhere but down towards the road. Even so, the only thing that I see on the road are ‘the butts of smoked cigarettes’ and they too tend to cause the same feeling.

This craziness was not just confined to outside environment. Even in the office or in home the feelings struck me with same intensity. When I am reading a book at home, if any character of the story in the book smokes a cigarette, my mouth opens up and throat dries up for the want of a puff. In office, when a colleagues goes out to smoke and comes back, my nose starts to work like dog’s nose, and with expanded nostrils, try to extract any minute fragrance (to a smoker it is) in the air surrounding the colleague. One colleague wondered if it is his axe spray and retorted that he is going to sue the company as it was not attracting gals as claimed but guys.

1. High Blood Pressure

2. Heart Disease

3. Pulmonary Disease

4. Vascular Diseases

5. Stroke

6. Laryngeal Polyps

7. Impotence

8. Wrinkling of Skin

9. Mouth Disease

10. Respiratory Infections

11. Smoking and Ulcer

After casually glancing it once I realized some change in the list. The list suddenly changed like this,

1. High Blood Pressure

2. Heart Disease

3. Pulmonary Disease

4. Vascular Diseases

5. Stroke

6. Laryngeal Polyps

8. Wrinkling of Skin

9. Mouth Disease

10. Respiratory Infections

11. Smoking and Ulcer

After seeing this, I immediately took a printout and stuck it my hall. I want to stuck this in office to but there are a lot of smokers who might take offence. No matter how unstable I get with the thought of smoke the moment I see that, my heart pounds and every thought of smoking cigarette just stops. I now think that this can only work.

I still go through torture, but I have to. All I wanted was to become the master of my life but became a slave of this habit. It cannot be so any more. I have to stop it and I know I can. For all those, who support my cause leave ur comment for this post. It can supportive, sarcastic, humorous or careless but in some way should support my determination. Please guys!! Help me.