Spicy Tales of My Life

My college is located in one of the most beautiful places i.e. on a hill surrounded by picturesque landscape of a mountain range. I can talk to clouds every day. I have seen this kind of beauty only in movies or in the large posters like the one that is hung in my neighbour’s house. On the very first day I thought, well if this is the view that I am going to saviour for next two years then each day will be as magnificent as the last. But alas!! That was the last day on which my magnificent feeling lasted.

When you see one of those solitary, beautiful places on the earth you feel how wonderful it would be if you get to stay there for the rest of your lives. Well, as long as it’s just a feeling, it may feel nice. Only when you get a chance to realize the feeling, you will realize that places like these are meant to spend a vacation, not a lifetime. We are too used to a civilization to do without it, nor am I able to. But I knew I’ll learn to survive this place in due course of time as long as I get to see the beautiful view of sun rising above the magnificent mountains, every day from my window.

But Alas again!! What use is this beautiful sunrise, if I either lack the mood or time to view it? Every day I wake up from the nightmare of nearing deadlines and unfinished assignments. All I need is 5 seconds time to turn east towards my window but my irate mood denies it. It is not that the beauty does not astonish me anymore, it does. If at all, by sheer chance, I look at those mountains, I feel bad for denying myself the serenity of captivating nature that is only at one turn of my head.

Blabber is random. The word random in the title is redundant I know, but cannot think of any thing better at the moment. So  you might have  to bear with it.I was wondering when was the last time I updated my blog. Couldn’t remember exactly but It was such  a long time back that the instance of it faded out of my memory. I had to refer to my blog archive to know that it was about 3 months back. I want to write but cannot think of any good tale in particular. I have decided to blabber some thing.

So much has changed in last three months. My admission into MBA program has changed my life in a way I have never imagined before. Going back to the class room is tough after a hiatus of 4 years and especially for a guy like me who is on the other side of  25,  it is definitely not  a  piece of cake. You are no longer a kid, and to sit in a classroom listening to a lecture is the last thing you’d like to do. But it’s no use cribbing as I have already made the choice to do things  the  hard way.

So many things happened in my college in such a short span of time. I have met a lot of people of so many different kinds. It was interesting to get to know all of them. I can say I haven’t met these many during the last four years  at my  work place. Last 3 months were eventful but all of it happened in the blink of an eye. Once these moments passed it felt like  three months were too short a time  for so much to happen in it.

These events created  a paradigm shift in my approach towards life. It was so easy to survive the life of a software engineer but to survive an MBA is to survive a cyclone that will uproot many of your beliefs. Never has been my life so tough rather felt so tough. So far there has never been a dearth of foolish people around me whom I could easily surpass to win a race. But here, I realized, there has never been a dearth of smart ass people to compete with. It is a challenge every day to stand apart from the crowd.

Some might call what I experienced initially as inferiority complex but it seemed a necessity around this place to constantly thrive along to survive the competition. I guess this is where people go wrong. Things like inferiority complex, jealousy etc. can bring bad things onto somebody but never anything good. People forget that their aim is to succeed but not to surpass some body. One should focus on things that one is good at and try to put his best efforts irrespective of how better others are at the same task. This is how real learning happens. A bit of envy is necessary in the competitive world but it must not release the negative energy inside. Why the hell am I giving this bloody lecture. I Just wanted to reiterate a few things to get everything straight in my head. Might not be an interesting read for you but just to drive away my writers block, this is the beginning.